i dont really know what to say anymore .


OMG , my bro found out about my facebook . == FAR OUT . i knewi shouldnt of let that make me one . Anyways , fuck him .

I GOT HAIR CUTTING SCISSORS COS CC GAVE IT TO ME

AND I CUT MY FRINGE

i doesnt look 'PRO' but i looks .. alright :)

heheh

yeeeeboy

ok bye


wow , i havent been on for 2-3 days .

Anyways , school started on Monday , it was fuckennn tiring and + i had to go tutor , ohh wells , yesterday night i started scratcing my eye . And NOW its all red and shit . Its fucken retarted . No joke . I've put like 100s of eye drops in it .

Guess what ...

I GOT FACEBOOK NOW , well , my brother deleted my old one .. because i was talking to guys . Hopefully my brothers dont find out about it now .. LOL . offft . its taking forever to change my picture thing .. FINALLY , ITS DONE ;


I havent been on facebook for ages .. and i forgot everything :(

Search Jayee Lim on facebook . And add me :)


5:00 ; i was surposed to leave .
5:15 ; I went downstairs after getting ready , Dad was busy , so i waited another 15 mints
5:30 ; Mum - Go eat -- i waited for the food to cook
5:35 ; Dad - Go find the phone - Took me ages to find it
5:50 ; Found the phone and started eating
6:00 ; Tried to find my lipbalm ( FAIL ) i got so pissed off
6:05 ; Going out the drive way when dad needed to go toilet
6:10 ; Left the drive way and went to fairfield's showgroung
6:25 ; PAID 20 BUCKS TO GET IN
6: 30 ; Met caitlyn + Adwin + Ben + some other people - ben left soon after
6:55 ; Went out side to wait with eveyone - adwin left
7:04 ; Caitlyn , adwin , Renny + her sister went home leaving me alone
7:10 ; Adwin and Ben came back + i called my dad , and he said to wait 10 mins cos he was eating - waited with ben
7:20 Dad came , finally
7:30 ; Got home

filo fest was .. kinda gay , pretty much because at the time i went , everyone started to leave . And i cost 20 bucks to fucken enter and i only stayed there for like . 30 mins ?

FAR OUT , and i fucken lost my lipbalm :'( i cant find it :( im going to try again tonight .

Hmmm , i feel like KFC ( fuck you helen )

KFC , KFC , KFC , KFC !


i just asked dad and he said i can go FILO FEST :)

IM SO HAPPY ,

hopefully my mum doesnt complain and let me go for a few hours . :)

but entry is like 20 dollars :( and i have to buy food too ( lyncee offered to shout me .. but nah , i dont wanna be mean ) hopefully dad gives me money .

im going to shower , toodles .


You gain things in life , and you lose things in life .
You win in life , but you also lose .
There's a new door , but another one closes .
You feel happy , but there's also sadness
There's up and downs .
You have to face challenges and all the hardships in life .

I hate life

Death seems better , being with god , instead of living this harsh life and being alive . Toodles guys , i wont see you for a while .


Well , theres nothing to do atm , and i cant watch my precious dramas because most family is here . There's little cousins ; Brenda , Anita , Necia , Raymond & lovena + their parents and all our other aunties .. And the computer .. is pretty much in the living room ( farrr out , cant they move it to my room , i dont think they want to cos .. i might be on net too much , LOL ) anyways , the silly cambodian show is on , and i can hear my little cousins screaming from upstairs . Ohh wells . Im texting Lyncee atm about filo fest . Im not sure if i can go :( but im going to ask my dad later . Well , im not sure if i can bitch about this person on blog atm incase she reads it, but she called me dog for not going and shit . But she full started lying and telling me all this shit to me .. just to make me go . Im like super pissed atm .

MY WISH FOR TODAY;

- MAY DADDDY LET ME GO FILO FEST TODAY
- SLEEP EARLY FOR SCHOOL TOMORROW .

Ohh yeah , todays the last day of holidays and i am extremely sad , i want more holidays , well for term 4 , i think there's only 9 weeks of school , THEN CHRISTMAS and the 6 weeks holidays :) I cant wait for that . But , i want more holidays now .

Hmmm , Today , i didnt get to go bike riding :( Im so sad , stupid ninemsn , stop lying about the wearther , it said there was going to be 1-2 showers in the morning , and its gonna be cloudy all day . BUT ITS LIKE FUCKEN SUNNY NOW . ohh wells .

Fuckkenn hell . I left my iphone upstairs :( and i cbf going to get it . FUCK .

OHHH YEAH , well , im a person who is extremely tall , and skinny ( my tallness makees me look skinnier ) well , in weigh about 45ish now . AND . If i gain 5 Kilos by the end of the year ( which is probually not likely ) I get 150 From My mum and 150 from my dad :) SO , if i gain 5 kilos by the end of the year .. I GET 300 DOLLARS . And if i fail to do so , i have to pay my parents back , but fuck that , i dont have have any money , but im just gonna just ... Go along with the deal for now :) I really want the 300 Bucks , and if i so , i would add it to my piggy bank , and then .. I'd have like 500 DOLLARS . YEEEEEEEAAH BABBY . Hmm , i shouldnt get too excited incase i lose :( Ohh wells .

Hmmm , whats that nice smell ?

Im going to get my iphone now , i cant stand the cambodian channel .

JackieBoyz - Love drunk
Shelby - My all
Natasha Bedingfield - Again


xooxxxJLIM


I'vebeen searching the net for the hairdressers thing ... But i couldnt find it :( * sobs .

BUT , i found these awesome other scirssors .











So .. i think i would be on the look out for those too .

* Still searches for the net for the other thingo

I CANT SEEM TO FIND IT , IM GOING TO PMS AT EVERYONE .

Oh yeah guys ....




Ohhhhh jeeeez . My dad has been complaining about my hair a lot lately . No joke .

; Your fringe is so long , clip it up
; Your hair is so short , cut it so you look like a boy
; What ? You cut your hair ? There's no difference .

The main one he complains about these days is - Your fringe is so long , clip it up . LOL . i haven't cut my hair for a few months , its like .. Half way down my back now , and i really want my layers to grow longer . And my fridge is about .. up to my mouth-ish . Well , my fringe can get annoying sometimes , it never goes to how i want it :@

Lately I've been shopping a lot , I'm always on the look for those .. Thingos hairdressers use to cut people hair ( especially for layers ) because .. then . I can cut my own fridge :) If you know when i can get it , please tell me . Orelse .. I've have no choice but to tax it off a hairdresser . Oh wait , i'll tell someone to tax it for me :) Well .




1. Someone was ringing the doorbell at 9:45 , as usual , i ignore .. BUT THIS TIME , THE MOTHER FUCKER . DONT STOP RINGING THE DOOR BELL , SERIOUSLY , :@ I FULL GOT ANGER FROM HIM . FARRRR OUT . Anyways , when i went down , half asleep he was like ..

Retarted guy ; ohh , i woke you up ayye ? - in a weird accent and started laughing .
Me ; yeah , * gave him the evils , what do you want ?
Retarted guy ; blah blabh blah ,
Me ; ( in my mind ; wtf ? ) ok then , umm , yeah ?
Retarted guy ; * Got this tank thing , and walked off ( my dad was selling them
Me ; *Ran off to him - THEYRE FOR SALE
Retarted guy ; nooo worriieee , i gip you mooney later .
Me ; yeah kay cuz .

I got 10 bucks from him :) i wish i told him it was actually 30 bucks . ohhh wells .


2. I went Parra , went food court i ate 2 sushi . Then I saw these awesome nikey trackies for 60ish , but mum didnt let me buy it :( she said , she's only going to buy me nice trackies cos she doesnt want to waste her money , i bought a nikey jumper instead ... knowing it was going to be summer :) I then Went Lincraft the buy some shit & walked around parra


3. Came home and had 1 1/2 hours till tutor , and i tried to finish all my tutor home work in that time , but i was really tired and only done 6 questions , out of like 100 . So i was like fuck that , and went to tutor .


4. I Went tutor , got that huge ass stomache ache. Came back , and landed on this website . www.jlimjlim.blogspot.com :) I Walked up the stairs and nearly stacked i , then walked back down , slowly to prevent my face being fucked . Looked my comp screen again ; www.jlimjlim.blogspot.com :D


5. Typing this shit


OMG , i just came back from tutor .. and guess what happened ... in the middle of no where .. I GOT THIS BIG ASSS STOMACH ACHE . LIKE SERIOUSLY . i nearly cried because of the pain , and my tutor teacher made it worse , he talks so loud :( Biggest + Gayest Stomach ache of all times man . If i get that experience again , im going to stab someone , and hopefully i dont get it tomorrow either , because .. IM GOING BIKE RIDING at Homebush - Bisentanial Park ( how ever you spell it ) I love Riding there , its like so big and .. yeah . Hopefully i dont gte lost like last time , like that place is huggggge . And there's like awesome parks there and shit . ITS THE BEST . Hmmm , i havent biked in ages .... Hopefully i dont stack it . I can imagine myself stack it - me stacked it , bike rolles over me . me dead . anyways , fuck , that better not get jinxed . Ohhh wells .

Song on ipod atm ; R.Kelly - Salute . (ipod on shuffle)

Anyways , i've found out a few days agao my brother is going to take my iphone away from me in a week(s). I got go pissy that day and i pmsed at everyone that day . We'll .. My iphone has a .. ( how do you say it ? ) It has a longggggg history behind it , well not really .

When the Iphone3GS came out , my brother got it after telling the iphone dealers that he lost his old iPhone3G ( but he didnt ) inorder to get it for free or cheaper , he just put it on aeroplane mode ( so the iphone dealers dont track it down and fine him ) and gave it to me , so i can use it for ipod, camera ... etc because at that time i had the old ipod nano. Well . my mum + brother michael are into the whole 'Bank/Share/interest/money' thingo . And , since my mum works most days , she wants to know the stocks/shares while she's on lunch break . Soooo , michael is going to take my iphone , and try to fix it or something like that == so my mum can use the internet on it or something . but ... im going to fight back .. cos . NO ONE IS GONNA TAKE MY BABY FROM ME ! i've only had it for .. a few months , and i see it as my baby . eventhough i ACCIDENTALLY wrecked the screen protection for it , and looks half fucktarted , but you can always remove it and replace it :) and then :( how do i listen to music ? :( Music is my life :(

Ipod ; Unknown - Track 5 :)
Taio Cruz - Break your heart

Well right now , im talking to Kim and ummm . you know .. when ever i talk to her ..




OMFG , last night , i couldnt sleep , like .. not until 3ish 4ish because of what happened the previous day ; watching 'My bloody valentine', i always think the fucken physo mother fucker might burst into my room and chop me up .. and i also thought the ring girl or the grudge might come get me too . Im the type of person .. who doesnt like scary movies and dont want to watch them because i know sometimes i cant get to sleep at night . But , i watch those movies anyways . anyways .. . IM NEVER GOING TO A SC ARY MOVIE MARATHON AGAIN . So . please do not invite me to one of those things , if you do , i will decile , and please do not consider lying to me and saying its a fucken chick flick marathon , because if you do ... Watch out . I'll get you . Hopefully i can sleep tonight .. and hopefully _____ calles me , and hopefully i fall asleep on him :)

Ohh wells , today , was my mums birthday , as usual on a friday , mum went to work at 10 . After that at 2 Andrew and i went to Livo ; Woolies , then went canley to find seafood and meat for the family dinner. Then at 4 we started cooking , i had to fucken run around and chop all this shit for michael and andrew . Then at 6ish , caitlyn came with the cake :) it was one of the prettiest cakes i've seen . ( Hopefully i'll get the picture .. soon . ) Anyways , we were close to finishing when my mum came , blah blah blah , For dinner we had this mushroom topped mince meat + capsicum + cheese . We also had a seafood stew/soup thing which we ate with bread. Then .. finally , WE HAD THE CAKE . It was ... SOO NICE . There was a thin layer of dough on the botton and side of the cake , and inside was custaardish wipcreamed ish thing , and topped of all that , was tonnes of mandarines . YUM YUM YUM .



XOXOOXOXOXJLIM


I've recently read some of my friends blogs and realised .... without you i would be a loner :( you guys make me look forward to tomorrow , lifes fun with you guys , you make me smile and help me with all my problems . THANK YOU .

IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER ;

ACOSTA Caitlyn (lyncheelynceeee) ; Omg omg omg , i love you , your a friends who makes .. fun of everything and always make me laugh , you sometimes you make me laugh too much that my stomach hurts . I love you

COSTA Eloise ( the chick that knows how to speak jap ) ; Psssh , who doesnt like cheese , and plus your italian .. JEEEEBUS , jokes . your a cute bitch who is really nice and cares for me , thank you , I Love You

NGUYEN Cecilia ( Mrs. Smarty Pants ) ; Your a smartass , and i like going out with you because .. if we were to chip in for something , you would always know how much we each have to pay . Your mind works like a fucken computer . Your not only smart , your awesome , I Love You

NGUYEN Christina ( another smartie ) ; You always tell me how tall I am , i hate to break it to you .. But your heaps short , ahhaha , even though your short , your always caring and fun , you can someones get 'out of control' and go high. I Love You

NGUYEN Kim ( Mrs. Short ) ; Ahahaha , your one of the shortest people i've seen :) and you know your short too . ohh wells . You help me with all my problems and listen to me . You follow me everywhere .. just like my dog . You give me cute smiles that i want to pinch your cheeks until theyre green . Thank you for always being there . I love you .
NGUYEN Teresa ( Thurtle, turtle , douchbag ) ; AHhahahahah , our memories make me laugh , your the funniest bitch on earth that always does silly things , but i love you , Without you .... I would be a girl in the corner , in a hole ... hahaha , remember when we were at moon fest and and we were eating Krispy Cream (dohnuts) and we saw these horses ? Roflamo . Well thank you for everything , I Love You

NGUYEN Thao ( Thaobao , cow , bao bao bao ) ; Your a bully :( you always hurt me :( But but but , i love you , your always caring and want to know all my secrets , you help me out with homework and shit , but you also help me with my life problems , thank you , I Love You

PHAM Quynh (Mrs Sexy aka Mrs Fashion aka Mrs Pretty ) ; your all about fashion and i love you , you have a wardrobe to die for ... * drools for your heels . Anyways , your always there when im sad .. we tell each other our secrets and laugh at all those silly things , I Love You

TRAN Helen ( Mrs Sexy ) ; Helen Helen Helen , thank you for always being there for me and helping , I tell you all my secrets without feeling shy about it . Althrough your very very very very short . I love you , we share our problems and help each other solve them out . I love you .

Without you guys , i'd be nothing , NOTHING , i hope nothing will come between us , may all our memories last ... I LOVE YOU


Song of the day ; SNSD - Genie

Today ... was a pretty hectic day .

1. I woke up at 12:30 and got ready in a rush because i was late for turtles movie marathon
2. I arrived at the 'Scary movie marathon' at 1:15ish while in the middle of a scary movie, and entered without anyone noticing and i scared the shits out of them :):D:):D:)
3. Turtle wanted to bash me cos i was one of the last ones there.
4. We were watching 'My Bloody Valentine' I was really scared , so i went on the laptop instead
5. Turtle wanted me to shoot someone with this stupid gun , but i didnt do it , i was too scared something might happen to me because everyone was laughing/smiling at me.
6. I ate
7. We had this big photo shoot thing
8. I ate even more
9. I ate more
10 . We played Taboo
11. Quynh then Eloise then teresa went home
12. Lyncee and I helped turtle clean
13. We went to turtles room
14. We watched Super Junior and SNSD videos
15. I kinda ate.
16. My dad was outside
17. I Hugged turtle and Lyncee , and turtle asked me to press the gun thing again , but i didnt ( far out , stop asking me )
18. I went home
19. I found out i was going late night tonight ; either neeta , livo , or parra .
20. Im blogging .. again .

Theres my day so far . :):)



xoxojLIM


Dear _____,

I know your probally not going to read this, but i would want you to know how i feel ....

_____ , your always on my mind , i cant stop thinking about you , if there's no you , theres no me , please give me all the love you can give me , please do not ever leave me . If you do .... i would be nothing ... I hope you will always love me and not love another girl. Thank you for always being there for me, even though i dont tell you im sad .. you always know.

Dino couples :) RAWWR .

How do I know you would always love me ?
How do I know you will never leave me ?
How do I know you would always be there for me ?
How do I know I'm your everything ?
How do I know this is true love ?

Please give me answers and prove to me you really love me ...

Thank you, i love you. There's not a day i dont say I LOVE YOU

xoxooxoxooxoJLIM , I Love You


HOLLY SHIT , IM AT TURTLES HOUSE WITH TERESA , TURTLE , ELOISE , CAITLYN , AND QUYNH , WE'RE WATCHING 'MY BLOODY VALENTINE' ATM , AND ITS SO FUCKEN SCARY . Its like .. SO SCARY , IM GOING TO FUCKEN PISS IN MY PANTS , NO FUCKEN JOKE . Im blogging to take my mind off the movie. Im the type of person .. who doesnt like watching scary movies without someone cuddling me, i dont like sleeping at night knowing the grudge , or the ring girl or the boogy man or some fucktarted , scary mother fucker standing my my bedside .. awaiting to kill me .. FARRR OUT . WHY DID I COME HERE FOR ? right now , i have my ipod on blast and listening ot music while everyone is watching the scary movie, :( only one of my earphones work :( man , i wish they both work , farrrr , im going to get new ones tomorrow :( The song im listening to atm is - Bi Rain ; Love Story , omg omg omg , Its so scary , i just saw this chopped up chick in the washing machine :( like ... ewwwwwwwwwww . And fucken Quynh wont stop touching my back , and i got scared :( So i turned around, my back facing the tv and my front facing Quynh , and now im scared the stupid fucktard might come out of the screen and kill me, so now im facing the tv . The movie is near its ending ... Im actually watching to see what happens .i've only watched the 2nd half of the movie . Apparently the 'good'guy was the killer , he's a pysho , he just discovered he was killing everyone , such a dumbass , this movie is scaring me , im going go hide under a blanket now



, tooodles .



xoxoJLIM


hmm , today was such a gay day ==

i went cabra today , and saw this really nice shirt , but i couldn't buying it cos i didn't have money :( I SHOULD'VE BOUGHT IT , IT WAS SO NICE ! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR :@ hopefully i can go there again on Saturday and get it :) but i don't know if it'll look good on me .. since I'm skinny and all that :( that's why ... I'M GOING TO START TO EAT MORE . gain some weight , so all those people can shut up and stop telling me to eat more . Wait , but i appreciate it because it makes me want to eat more . Oh wells .

I found out today my brother is the fucken fattest , laziest bitch on earth. He brought the wireless home phone upstairs ( i have a wireless phone , and a non-wireless phone downstairs ), and five minutes later he uses his mobile from upstairs to call the home phone and i picked up from the non-wireless phone . And he tells me to go upstairs . ( hopefully I'm not confusing you ) when he called me , i couldn't stop laughing , i told my parents what happened and they started calling him stupid :) hahahaha

now , I'm thinking about moments .

1. For those who are I'm my group , most of yous ( most likely all of yous will remember ) ; when i hit Helen's eye :) i mean :'( .... SA-MAKA-DORA ( how ever you spell it ) well , it was just an ordinary day , the group was bored , and wanted something to do , so ..we started playing Sa-maka-dora :) ROFLMAO . 16 .... 17 ... 18 ... 19 ... WHACK .... i ACCIDENTALLY whacked helens eye . ACCIDENTALLY . Im not that mean to actually do that to someone >:) well at that same moment , every one started laughing including me and helen . LOL . And helen started crying :'(

I am extremely sorry for what i did . LOL .

2. jlim ; C O S T A .. ? OMG . HOLY ... ( about to say shit )
Lyncee ; *Spits out all the coke/sprite ( some sorta drink ) in her mouth
Everyone ; *Laughs like no tomorrow .

3. TURTLE PUTTING HER BUN IN MRS KELLYS ASS . ROFLMAOOO . ahhaah , teresa ... if your reading this , please dont bash me :( . ROFLMAO , this was a fucken unforgettable moment bro .

4. Turtle calling Miss Pickering - MUM . AHHAHAHA . MUM :) WANNA HELP ME WITH MY SEWING ? :) JOKES .... dont bash me :'(

5. Hmm , another momment was when andrew was holding all his rubish and stacked it down the stairs and landed on his bum :) his rubish went everywhere and i couldnt stop laughing . I nearly stacked it down the stairs because i was laughing too much .

Hmmm , i cant think of any atm , im going to go shower now :)


I'm a person who cant live without my music. Music can get me into the mood, it can get me calm or excited :) New or old it doesnt matter , Music is my life .

Song of the day;

RL ( of next ) - I Love You

Karl Wolf - Bestfriend
Syreeta - Breakfree
Samie - Come Home
Danny Fernandes - Never again
Danny Fernandes - Think about you
Rob Allen - Explosive
Jackie boyz - Face the music
Mario - Highway to love
NLT - HSSH
Babyface - I Choose U
Karl Wolf - Wait for you
Christian - Impossible
Ace Hood Feat Jereminh - Love Somebody
Karl Wolf - My Ethnicity
One call - Unglued
Kyle Christopher - We're in love
Wynhter Gordon - You gotta go
Travis ( of NLT ) - I want it all
SNSD - Gee
SNSD - Genie - thank you lyncee for introducing this song to me ... ITS SO GOOD .
Super Junior - Sorry sorry
Big Bang - Last Farewell



I havent updated my ipod for like a few months , so these songs are pretty old , but who the fuck cares.

NTS ; UPDATE UPOD NOW/SOON/TOMORROW/WHENEVER/IN5MINS





Jeeeeebus , i just got told off from my bro cos i had something 'stupid' on my pm ; Slutface #10. My brother told me to take it off cos it was 'stupid' . So i took it off , and now i dont want to walk upstairs because i know for a fact my 'stupid' brother's going to be there , and that he's going to call me 'stupid' and give me a 'stupid' lecture, which is pretty 'stupid' because its only this group thingo and i dont really think its 'stupid', and its only a 'stupid' pm , like anyone really cares about it . He's the 'stupid' one. LOL , why do i keep saying 'stupid' ? I've said 'stupid' like 11 times. Thats 'stupid' make that 12 times , aahahaha . Im so bored im actually bothered to write these 'stupid' blog(s) . LOL . and i know no one reads it anyways. It's like 11:54PM and like , i dont want to walk up the 'stupid' stairs to see my 'stupid' brother because i dont want him to call me 'stupid'. Oh wells , i'll sneak up the stairs :) Hopefully i dont stack it :) Wish me Luck :)

I've said 'Stupid' ; 17 times , and i cbf writing more .

FUCKEN HELL , im going up the 'stupid' stairs now .

That's 18 times saying 'stupid' , wait no , 19

hmm , i want to make it to 20 ..

'Stupid'

There we go :)

im so fucken bored :(


AHHAAHAH :) your gay and you know it .


hahaha , im here again .

i've been on this website for like 30 minutes trying to figure out how to 'follow' people on this blogging thingo . But , as usual ... its a FAIL . oh wells , i'll just try again another day , well today was like another day , i wake up and 1 hoping my dad isn't down stairs to tell me off for waking up so late , and getting the lecuture about being more like my cousins == ; why dont you wake up early like your cousins. But today , he wasnt downstairs (: no one was :):) and for the rest of the day i started watching bull fighting again ..

It started as a 3-on-3 basketball competition between two rival schools; an annual event in which the winner would control the 13th Street basketball court for the following year. To everybody's surprise, the 9-year reigning champion lost this year... and it was all because of one girl. Now, this game has a new purpose.

Yi Sheng Xue (Hebe T, a hot-headed young girl, is an avid Bull Fighting fan. At her side is her loyal childhood friend and personal bodyguard, Jin Zi Cong (Lee Wei). Their lives take a drastic turn when they meet Shen Ruo He (Mike He) whom Sheng Xue falls deeply in love with. However, they encounter many obstacles that stand in the way of them being together.

Will love triumph over evil? And will Zi Cong be able to live with seeing the woman he loves, love another man?

( Ctrl + C and Ctrl + V from DramaWiki )

And well , now ... I'm waiting for my stupid pizza to cook .

Ohhh fuck , there's something in my eye , and its hurting it :(

YAYY , EATING TIME :)

xoxo JLIM

Why are my parents so strick on me ? :( is it because i have two older brothers that are .. old and they think im not capable of looking after myself ? Seriously , because im a girl , and im only 13 .... turning 14 in ... 59 days - i think . HOLY SHIT , THATS SO CLOSE , LIKE ONLY TWO MORE MONTHS , OMG . anyways , back to the topic . well , my parents are a nono to outings , its now the holidays , and i havent really .. been out with friends , i've only been out to cousins house , friends house ( hardly ) umm , local shops, out with brother and cousins .

Like , i wanted to go jess's birthday outing thing on tuesday , i asked mum and she goes ' GO WITH YOUR BROTHER , and so i went with my oldest brother which is now 21 == . but i didnt want to go wiht jessieca with my brother there , I as asked to go parra with thao and her friends , but , i dont know if mum would let , i want to ask her if i can go , but i cbf , cos i know she is most likely to say no .

OFFFFFT . IM SO PISSED OFF NOW , I just asked mum whats the age when i can go out , and she said 18, im like WTFING right now , im going to ask her again . SUCH A DOUCH . SERIOUSLY .

JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEBUS

she said 18 again . IM FUCKEN PISSED OFFFFF .

Why cant she let me go out :( everyone else is , im always the one not going out and stuck at home . Are they scared i might meeet a guy i like and date him or something ? pssshh , too late for that buddaye . If they didnt know , i feel so icilated because im not going out , not going out makes me want to do bad things . It makes things .. worse without them knowing about it . They dont know whats going on .... If only they were in my shoes .

OH FOR FUCKS SAKE .

When im fucken 18 im fucken moving out , so i can do what ever i want .. when ever i want . Or i can just fucken run away .

:@

Farrrrrr , LOL . im bad anyways , i've had this 'SECRET' phone for me for like 2 months and they havent found out yet . They wont let me get a phone till im - ' Older' .

Oh wells .

Im out .


LOL , im writing another blog ... surprisingly .

anyways , today i was out with helen , it was pretty fun .

well , today i walked to helens house , it was pretty scary walking there , not really knowing where i was going and that the streets were all quiet and everything .. i didnt want to get raped or anything , well . after a LONG which consists of like ... 15 mins approximately , i was extremely tired when i got to helens house , yes , i know , im a weakling . Then Helen and I decided to go canley shops :L we brought many things like icecream Helen brought this gayo icecream which i forgot what it was called and .. i brought GOLDEN GAYTIME lol . it was really really .. mouth watering . We also brought food and drinks that consists of ; icetea, jelly drink, lynchee drink ( i think ), hot chips and chicken chippies . Then we went to my house (H) and done a little something ;) jokes , we just watched these reallly cool shows ( How dare you call them gay helen , they were awesome ) well , except this gay genie show helen thought it was cool . it was so gay because it was like ... set in the olden days , ewwww . no affence to those people who like those shows . Then it was 6:30 ' meaning it was tutor time .. for me . So Helen and I walked to my tutor , and helen saw matthew and some of her other friends . It was time to say goodbye to helen , well not really , she kept on texting me in tutor saying ' OMG ________ IS SO HOT .' ROFLMAO . ( Helen , please dont kill me ) . OH YEAH , and after tutor , was like .. 8ish , i had to walk home since it was only a few minutes away , while i was walking in the dark, alone ( my silly mum forgot to pick me up ) there was a pack of guys which consists of like 6-7ish guys were walking behind me being dickheads , i really wanted to slap them and get my gun out , but i cbf . Welll , then i came home and somehow ended up on this website .....

And right now , im blogging ( ewww ) and talking to helen on msn :L

RAWR ,


LOL , im writing a new blog , how unbelievable . well .

umm .

right now , im thinking about second chances ...
do people really deserve second chances ? do thhey ? do they ?
but seriously ,
have you ever been heartbroken and later that person comes running back to you ?
you love them , but you dont know what to do , you think they love you too , but your always unsure , are you willing to take him back , and forgive him for what they did to you before , and start again ? what if they breaks your heart again ? then what ? THEN WHAT ?

( ahhaha i like raging :) )

when your heart breaks , it feels like something is stabbing your heart , im not sure if people say that , because it sounds hurtful and yeah, but like ... i really feel it , no joke , I FEEL SOMETHING STABBING MY HEART when im heartbroken . NO JOKE .

when someone says ; i promise i will be with you forever , is it true ? because i've heard this many times , not just me , but with other people too . in the end ..... things are .. different .

what is love ?

is love when you feel a tingle in your heart when your thinking about that person ?
is love when you smile when your talking on the phone with that person ?
is love just a stupid word ?

tell me the meaning of love ..





hmm , the curry puffs im eating atm is delicious . im thirsty == .


How do you use this stupid thing ? its so ... confusing .

i am ANGER

not really , but like yeah . this is really pissing me off .


ewwwwwwwww . i got a blog . and i dont know why . i think i was just simply bored and wanted time to pass by more quickly . no seriously . i think blogging is gay . fuck .... does that mean i'm gay ? ok . im changing the topic .

ummmmm . hello . ummmmm . hi .

i dont know what to say :S

well . today , i woke up at like 9 because david texted me , i was so tired and didnt have enough sleep the night before , i didnt even have the energy to reply back . then . then . then . david called me and we talked for hours . our phone conversation was so funny , but , im not going to talk about it now . and then and then and then and then . yeah .

wellls .

im going to watch gossip girl now .

i know you love me , xoxo gossip girl <3